Toxic

it really sucks when everything you thought about a person is all a lie.

residence on earth

Sometimes I wonder why I am the way I am when it comes to certain things. I know this probably doesn’t make sense..but it makes sense in my mind. 
I tend to be an introvert.
I am not sure why. I often ponder about this, but I can’t understand why.

I pray that God help me love others as He loves me.
And I do

It’s just that after a while, I just need to get away. There are people who are very dependent of others, and because I am not, most people feel intimidated by me, or so that’s what they have told me.

The weird thing is that deep inside I want the company of others. Mostly just one person that understands me. That I won’t get sick of. That I don’t know makes me feel like I can be who I am.

 

i’m reading like four different books, and i just want to finish one, but they are all so good, i have to read some from each, and it’s just really annoying.

also i should start my common app

Sometimes people do things that they think will be beneficial to others without consulting those others. It’s annoying.

“I was anti-everything and everyone. I didn’t want people around me. This aversion was not some big crippling anxiety; merely a mature recognition of my own psychological vulnerability and my lack of suitability as a companion. Thoughts jostled for space in my crowded brain as I struggled to give them some order which might serve to motivate my listless life.”

—Irvine Welsh

there is so much to do and so little time to do all of these awesome things